这是一个我曾经爱得很深的女人。。我们彼此相爱。。
她，让我快乐地度过了美丽的一年半。。
她，让我知道原来叮当是黄色的。。
她，让我知道了好多好多。。
我不好，我不配拥有她。。
现在的我，已经没有能力去照顾你，
上天和你也不给我机会去照顾你。。
我永远失去了你。。
请找一个比我好得多的，让你自己的生活过的美满幸福。。
最后一次，我想对你说：我爱你！
保重！

放不下

经历了那么久，还是放不下你。。

心里有很多话想跟你说，

想跟你说，你的吻对我是特别的。。

你的拥抱，你的背影。。

到底需要多久才能彻底的放下你呢？？

中毒太深。

算了吧。。

算了吧。。
当两个人真的觉得不适合对方时，

真的应该放手。。

苦苦纠缠，也无济于事。。

我累了，真的累了。。

两个人相处，真的很难。。

你喜欢做什么就去做吧。。

没人会再理你了。。

老婆仔，我真的爱你，回来我身边好吗？？

A relationship that starts on the 10th of august 2010..

2 people start their life together happily.

slowly coming in the arguments that cannot be avoided for most of the couples..

small arguments that the boy thought that is not important,

but it is different on the viewpoint of the girl..

2 people from 2 different family background,

they tried many times,many method to reduce the arguments happened between them.

until the boy thought that the argument become some normal part in their relationship..

although their viewpoint is different,

the boy still love the girl..

very lovely, truly and deeply..

the boy never record down anything that happened between them..

because he believes that this girl would be his last girl,

for now and forever..

and hoping that he can spend his entire life with her..

and they are going to live like pair of old love birds in the sky..

on the 25th December 2011..

it should be a merry merry Christmas for all the people in the wo

rld..

but it's very different for the boy..

the girl wanted to break up with the boy,

it's all because the boy made the girl angry the day before..

the boy said nothing when the girl tells him..

he thought that it's just a funny dream,

everything will remain the same after he woke up from his dream..

after a short nap,

the boy called the girl out,

hoping that the girl also forget what she said before this..

but the girl tell the boy she will not change her decision,

although they know they still love each other..

she wants to keep the sweetest moment of them in her memories,

rather than letting the boy keep hurting her..

the boy keep trying and trying,

trying to change the girl's decision..

the boy keep begging begging and begging,

trying to beg the girls to go back to him..

but everything seems too late,

the boy cried in front of the girl..

the tears cant stop coming out from the eyes..

the tears cant stop coming out from the broken heart...

at this time the boy tells the god,

he would sacrifices everything,

as long as the girl come back to him...

IF the girl is reading this,

the boy wanted to say :

老婆仔，我真的爱你，回来我身边好吗？？

失望

每每在报章上，看到那些外国留学生的留言。。
我的眼泪就会在眼眶上打滚。。
看见人家写出的感受。。
在外国的天气，地方，建筑物，行人。。
真的好想像他们一样，可以出国感受一下。。
从他们的文章上，我感觉到，他们是非常开心的。。
虽然要离开温馨的家，但你到其他国家的满足感，
体验到的人事物，足以覆盖那想家的念头。。
我很羡慕他们。。
因为他们可以梦想成真。。
我想这是每个人的愿望吧？
有人对我说，
只要现在赚多一点钱，哪怕以后去不了。。
他们是对的，
但是，
他们没想过，
出国念书，和出国旅行，是不一样的。。
体验到的人事物是不一样的。。
完完整整的不一样。。
我真的很羡慕他们，可能靠家庭，可能靠自己努力赚钱。。
但他们实实在在去了他们梦想的地方念书。。
我很辛苦，为什么我跟他们不一样？
到底要多久，我才能像他们这样？
我真的很痛心。。
我剩下一年就读完书了，有些朋友都到了外地读书。。
二十岁，该读书时，我却不能一心一意地读。。
可能到以后，这会是我心中的遗憾。。
不想了，我去不到，我就要让我的孩子去到。。
到现在我终于明白那些老人家，
每次都会' bili...bala...' 的一大堆，叫孩子们努力读书。。
因为他们年轻时无法得到好教育，他们就设法让下一代得到。。
但有些人还不会感恩，不知道老人们，爸爸妈妈的苦心。。
HAIZ..你们啊！当你有的时候请珍惜。。
要知道不是每个人都可以像你们那样，可出国深照！

2/7/2010

Don't know for how long i never been sign in here..
well,i think this blog have no more reader already haha..but never mind,it is just a place for me to release myself,keep my good and bad memories..
sometimes i will look back at my previous posts,then i will realise,
WOW,I have went through so many things before?!
It was a good thing though,but i just cant keep myself writting blog everyday..
maybe i should do it??as look back to the past we can know how much we have improved!

back to the story,
I have just finished my 2nd sem in Taylors.
The exam week was the most hardcore week for me,4 days paper continuously..
about the result,i don't care..as i have lost my interest in studying already..
maybe it was because I have knew more frens from the working society?
and I like their life rather than staying college,paying a huge number of money just to hear people talk cock??
well,no matter how i will finish my degree!just 1 more year left okay?

back to work,
nowadays working 5 days per week,quite tired but i can get the money i want...
but major money came in,then I have major spending as well...
I was always out with different gangs of frens,then mostly went for DRINK!
not Milo Ice,not Teh O Ice Limau,but TIGER,CARLSBERG etc..
hm..dunno since when,i like beer..
maybe it consider cheap if compared to other alcohol drinks?
I know it is not worth spending money in BEER,but...u know what?
it's the way i release stress...
life is always so stressful..full of obstacles...
and by BEER,after a few glass you consume,you can get urself out...a TRUE YOU!!
those things that u dun dare to say out normally,when the time u r half-drunk,
u can just say it out like a story..
and when talk about something funny,
u can laugh it out like a baby...without giving a fuck to other people..
how good is tat?

alright!i get something i want,then i lose something too..
and that is the fucking opportunity cost!
i got job,but i lost my travel time..
normally every sem break i will go for a trip for sure..
but now,cant even plan as i am working 5 days per week..
the day i free then my frens not free...timing TAK DA NGAM!
what can i do?haha!i tell u i desperately wanna go REDANG LANG TENGAH PERHENTIAN at this moment!
it is just a fucking paradise with those beautiful corals and fishes!and sexy bikini baby as well..lolz!!okay,for those who are planning to go these places,take more pics pls..
at least i can FEEL the sea,corals,fishes and hot chicks...from the pic itself..

BUT at the time im writting this,im missing someone,or maybe something...
and that is why i can sit here,abandon my report 1st,and write this very cute 110 post..
life still go on as usual,dont think too much..life is unpredictable..
and this is my life for the moment!

初恋红豆冰

初恋的感觉，

就像是在最炎热的夏天，

吃了一口红豆冰， 又甜又冰，

冰得舌头都痛了，

还未来得及感受它在口中的滋味，

它却已融化了。

初恋红豆冰，一部全大马的作品，
勾起了我好多小时候的回忆。。
戏里的家具摆设，用具，都是我小时候所看到的。。
但现在已经没有了咯。。。
我小时后的玩意儿，就有如戏里的‘bakuli’ ，
以前的我虽然没有说时常赢，但都可以赢到一大罐回来。。
那 'bakuli' 不只是有单调的一种，而是有五颜六色，大小不一的。。
还有就是戏里那村子里，用脚车载人那一幕，
小时候，妈妈或外婆，都是这样载我去巴刹的。。好怀念。。
当要午睡时，那古老的风扇，发出的怪声，为我的午睡，带来一种可爱的旋律。。哈哈！

再来就是这戏带出来的感觉，
初恋。。甜甜的。。
你还记得您的初恋吗？？
每个人都会把它放在心中。。
不知何时，那记忆又会突然播放出来。。
刹那的回忆，是甜蜜的。。
虽然那时是非常伤心，但过后回想起来，却是如此的甜蜜。。
因为，它让我们成长了。。
爱一个人，要勇敢地说出来，才不会失去。。
爱一个人，也并不需要在一起，只要对方平安快乐就好。。
你们抓到这部戏要表达什么吗？？
不晓得？？那就去尝尝红豆冰吧！

雨

外头下着雨，是一个长命雨；
雨势不大，但却下了几句钟。。
坐在屋子里头的我，正静静地对着电脑，
看着朋友们在 fb 的留言，他们的生活照。。
我部落格主页的曲子，那美妙的旋律，
仿佛把我带到一个与世无争的世界。。
现在我的心情，是轻松的。。
雨，真的那么奇妙。。
尤其在夜深人静时，听着雨的滴答声。。
雨，带走了我的烦恼。。
雨，带走了我的忧愁。。
雨，让人思念。。
我喜欢，这雨带给我的感觉。。

Ntg to blog??

i just found out I've been very lazy to update my blog here,
or should I say,ntg special for me to blog about?
well,daily routine runs like a cycle,
A happen then B happen,
after B then A happen again..
Maybe i have get used to it.
I know some of the people dont like to talk about money,
what i meant was:money minded!
but what can I do?
everything in this world need money to exchange!
I just got my semester started,
following the next is to pay the tuition fees,
after that is buying all the books..
How I wish my father's a millionaire,
or at least,can support me in everything,
then i can study oversea,travel everywhere like what people will do,
go around europe etc..
yeah i admit i admire those who can go oversea to study,
what they need to do is just study,study and study!
How best is their life??
well,assignments due date is coming,
and i found out this semester im like no mood to study at all..
maybe of the 3 months break?
or maybe i found out that the outside world is more wonderful than a study life?
i do not know..im tired of all these things..
So just let it be,see how long can i go..

Chinese New Year

Chinese New Year,which the 1st day falls together with the Valentine's day this year,
it is very special as it only happen once for duno-how-many-decade..
It makes the couples this year kinda headache as the 1st day of CNY we should stay with family member,but they should stay with their loves 1 as well as it's valentine's day..
this incident is very cute,and the creative businessman came out with many crazy ideas and creative products..
well, the CNY this year was kinda bored for me i can say.
the 1st day after visit relatives' houses,then went grandma's house and stay till night time.
I did plan to hang out with frens like last year,but they didnt pick up my call.
end up,i went to sleep and cant wait to come back home as my grandma's house do not have internet services.
The 2nd day of CNY was also the same thing.ntg much to say about.
3rd day onwards,my life is getting easier as all my frens have came back from their kampung,
and then,we called,gathered up,and GAMBLE!!!!
we gamble from house to house,every houses can be a mini casino..
we drink we laugh we shout like sh in the house..
my fren's cute facial expression still appear in my mind now..
i wonder if i can open a mini casino like this,how much money would i earn..:p
then i went Genting on the 7th day of CNY,thought can win some money from Genting..
Who knows............it went the other way round which i have donatedMANY money to Genting...
well nvm,i will buy it share later and earn back!!
and i hope this year would be a great year for me!!!earn many many money,and i can achieve all my target!!!HUAT ah!!!!!!!!!!!

January 2010

Well,it has been ages i abandon my blog here..
though i check it everyday,but im LAZY to write..hehe!!
because i discovered reading people's blog is much more better than write my own blog,
i rather spend time to read more people's bloggie..TIME is GOLD ma..

Okay,I found out i always go out with frens till midnite,
and my mum was keep on asking and want me to go home early..
i keep on controlling myself already,
but sometimes stay home really boring ma...
Life comes PERFECT with some entertainment!!!yeah~~!!

Besides,this month was like a Birthday Month..
Many of my frens were having birthday celebration this month,
and everytime my mum asked me where am I going..
Mum:Where you go this time??
Me:Fren's birthday lo....
Mum:fren's birthday again??why so many fren's birthday geh??
She sound like i was cheating her..
but it is true ma..really birthday wo..
no go macam no give face,go then let mum scold..haiz..
Life tak da fair punya lah...haha!!

So it is picture time!!!This was callen's birthday..
celebrated in Phuture..
banyak lenglui that night,
but i failed to fish some back..haha!!
Okk nvm,the next 1..
Terry's birthday...
celebrated in Velvet..
yes it was in club again..
a killing money place...

with pretties..

ada look like brother??me and callen's shirt almost the same that day..

WenXi the mabuk girl that nite..haha!!

Wai Ping & Christine,the banyak gorgeous & banyak pretty girls...

After this 2 celebration,we have decided to have some normal and healthy celebration..
SO v had the really normal 1 during Sally's birthday..
V went for karaoke session,then Ole Ole Bali,then watching Old Dogs in Sunway~~

~Pretty Sally~

~the Family~

~Sally & Callen~the lovely couple

~Julian,Jeson,me~

this was taken during karaoke session,you all can see how enjoy is weibin??
er and i guess he was singing 'an jing' that time..lolz!!

and julian,the lame 1,sleep in the k room..

not only these with BMM family,
we always hang out and drink carlsberg in Dolphin Pandan Indah..
almost every week also on~~lolz!!
but it was enjoyable!!

and yeah,I also juz finished celebrating Qi Qi's birthday..
she is the one that i owe her a lot...
she teach me,train me,and keep on giving me chances in G2..
when i was a small little promoter..
till i became supervisor now..
sincerely Thanks to her!!

Lastly,i wanted to say,
Happy Birthday to everyone of you who born on January..
or should i say:Happy Birthday January??lolz!

Okay it is time to bed now..
nitez everyone!!

signing off,
Wai Wai

New Year Eve

it's 31st December 2009,
the last time i will write 2009 in the date column,
the last day of 2009,
what do you feel?

well,
I am happy,
because some of my target i have set very long time had successfully achieved!
I am sad,
because i had met some failure in the year as well.

what have i did in year 2009?

1)i knew 2 girls which are adorable,
but end up,i found out that they arent suit me or vice versa..
I am sad.

2)a new status in my job..

3)i have graduated from TARC,and all the (sohai)s from DFI1 had been separated!
well guys,i miss the moment with u all..v laugh v fuck the lecturer together!!!

4)finally I went to Redang Island that is in my wishlist,together with my mates from DFI1..
it's a very beautiful island!!definitely i am going back to the island again!

5)Enrolled into Taylor's University College,a college i wish to step in 2 years ago!and it is with my own effort!

6)passed all the insurance exams,and now looking for chances.

7)got selected as a Team Leader for Marlboro,which gives me better income and let me know a lot of best frens!!lolz!!

Seems little things i have done,but mostly are my target for 2009,and i have achieved it!
U know what??V look on quality not quantity ma..hahaha!!!
well,i really enjoy the day in 2009,
the experience,friends etc etc..
thanks all for coming in to my life and make it colorful!!(say it out from my sincere heart!)
hope all my friends will have a wonderful year of 2010 ahead!!
and now,it's time for me to set my goals for 2010,
and i think i should have more achievements in the brand new year!

GOOD BYE lovely 2009 and WELCOME the brand new 2010!!!

BAD MOOD

somebody pls tell me why im so bad mood now??
i seldom have this kind of mood for quite a long time ledi,
i felt alone,
i felt down,
i felt wanna cry,
i felt wanna scream out loud!!!!
how i hope somebody can stay beside me,
without doing anything,juz stay beside me silently....
when i wanna talk,i can find the person to talk to,
when im sitting alone,i hope somebody can consult me,
can talk to me,can share with me...
when i felt down,i hope somebody can give me a very warm hug,
or hold my hand tightly for a moment..
i do not need any alcohol or any expensive stuffs,
but the simple things like this..to let me feel im cared by people..

哈哈笑的日子！

已经很久，
我失去了这一种哈哈笑的日子。。
以前，我跟一班工作的朋友，每天都是哈哈笑的过日子。。
做工可能对一般人来说，是很辛苦的。。
但对那时的我们，
只要能一起工作，工作完了后，就是一轮的 party!!
但，日子一天一天的过，我们的关系，
也随着日子一天一天的疏远。。
以前的我们就象是个大家庭！
但现在，想约一起出来喝茶都很难。。
但很庆幸，我在另一份工作，认识了另一班朋友，
我们一起颠，一起笑，一起玩。。
2 点放工后，可以喝茶，然后吃宵夜至早上5 或 6 点。。
我很开心。。真的。。
因为，能找到一班能玩的朋友，能够像大家庭的朋友，
确实很难。。
我真的很高兴，能认识你们。。
虽然，我们都在不同的年龄层，各自有不同的工作，
但我们都一样能融入在一起。。
希望这些日子能维持久一点
我真的希望，我们一起颠的日子，
还会一直的维持下去。。

世事总是让人意想不到。。

I thought i have covered everything well,
but everything was revealed outside...
everyone knows what am i doing now,
well,am i really that stupid & naive??
had a drinking session with my colleague just now,
and from them only i know,
what i have kept for so long,
they knew it long long time ago..
haha!!but i think it is good for me also,
at least they know what im looking for & what i want!!
well,i found my recent life is so tough...
exam is coming but i haven touch my books n notes yet,
my job is killing me to the max..
time is really very golden for me now..
and last but not least,money!!
not because of money,i wont need to work so hard..
not becasue of money,i wont need to terbalikkan my time..
now i was like,sleep on 3am,then wake up at 11 or 12pm..then 5pm gotta ready to work ledi..
see,my life is kinda packed now!!!
but what to do??life is life,v still need to get thru it by our ownself..
oh ya,my car got bang last wednesday..
my fault,so i have to repair both car..fuck!!
damn unlucky wey....i did go pray pray ma..
how come this will happen to me??haha!!
life is ridiculous la...but i take it as my experience lo..no big deal!
RM1000++ only ma...money can earn back,
but experience is hard to earn..so i think this is worth...at least im ok now..
so tomorrow is the time for me to fight again,
for my studies & for my job..

Signing off,
Wai Wai

drunk or not drunk..

其实就在那一差之间。。
你们试过醉了时用力撑开眼睛看看这世界吗？？
你知道什么感受吗？？
就是。。。
其他人都醉只你不醉。。哈哈！！
well, the world is like tat..
when u are awake,u wanna get drunk..
when u are drunk,u wanna be awake..
actually this world is depends on how u look at it..
people always thought when they got drunk then everything will be settled,
do u think so??
sure not la come on..
i have a very long time din touch alcohol already..
and these 2 days i touched,
how the feel?
okok for me only..because when im happy,
my mind will come out one sentence for me,
"is this necessary for u??is this what u wan?"
everybody know alcohol n cigarettes not good..
but most of the time people only enjoy their life thru these 2 things..
so??
for me,i will think this is what i should experience on my stage now..
after this no more..
is this correct??
i oso dunno why i juz cant get drunk like other people..
without thinking other things..
im like...awake while im drunk..haha!!funny right??i tot so..
but i tell u definitely it's not a good things..
so??v better wake n face everything in our life..
because time is flying..right??treasure the time dude!!!

幸福

我，是一个幸福的人。。
突然间，我觉得。。这世界原来是这么美好的。。
为什么说我幸福呢??
因为，每当我遇到挫折，或遇到什么不顺意的事，
上天总会派许许多多的人来帮助我，安慰我，和鼓励我！！
这并不是每个人都有的，我应该珍惜！！
朋友们，真的很谢谢你们！！
你们一路来的关心，陪伴，鼓励，
让我一步步的成长。。
你们知道什么是朋友吗？？
我知道，我打从我内心，我真的知道！！
万分的感激！！！
我在我的家庭里，我也是个幸运和幸福的小孩。。
我从小就被很多人疼，很多人爱。。。
直到现在，家人们还是那么疼我。。
课业上，他们没给压力我，只要我努力，
工作上，家人能帮的就帮。。
这让我知道，原来没钱也可以这么高兴！
一个开心的家，一个温暖的家。。
还有一个幸福的我！
所以我要努力，熬夜熬苦也不要紧，
只要我做出成绩来，课业上，工作上，
我知道，
就是对家人们，对朋友们，
一个很大的回报。。
相信我，我会加油的！！
衷心感谢你们！！我的朋友们，我的家人们！！！

-FRIM day-

It's FRIM!!

u Know what??
i used to be a jogger too!!!
I went to FRIM with Chun Kit yesterday..
it's really a nice place to jog..
very secure,fresh air,nice people...
i remembered last time v jog in the morning,
together with Kit's parents,
as they are member of FRIM and they have a card to enter to FRIM..
and now,after v know how to drive,
v used to jog in the evening..
because no need to wake up so early ma..
abo wake up @ 6am..after jog n breakfast,
go home continue sleep,what for??haha!!
so whoever wanna go jog??or swim??ask me along!!!

Snooker Time!!

I do not know since when im so into Snooker..
I just can remember who drag me to play snooker,
and he's Meng Hong,1 of my 'brother'..
okay story begins with a drama with snooker,
then this Meng Hong felt so interesting and he went to play with his frens 1st..
after sometime, maybe after he think he is okay on his skill,
then he started to ask me out to play..
well,im quite noob on this as i seldom play snooker before..
nvm lo he pro ma,let him bully la..haha!!
but yesterday 1 thing happened,
this white ball was touching the black ball..
and he is suppose to hit the red ball,
if white ball touch the black ball 1st,
ooh ho.....he will be deducted 7 marks..
but at last,he manage to get rid of this situation safely..
well, i went to this snooker centre almost 4 or 5 times in a week,
and i have spent quite a lot of money in snooker too..haha!
stupid until........
should ask this Boss Meng Hong to buy a table,
then v can play free snooker everytime..

RAYA in Malacca

last week i had a trip to malacca with my family members,

to visit my aunty there..
well,started our journey at around 11pm on Sunday night,
and i managed to get there at 12.30am..
er,i mean 12.30am in my aunt's house..haha!!
u guess how fast i sped??

After i arrived there,i think of wanna go for satay celup,
because i know the shop haven close down yet,
and so coincidentally my uncle asked my whether wanna go Satay Celup??
well,my answer sure YES YES YES!!
had a very nice supper there..and im looking forward for my frens that promised me will come Malacca as well...

Woke up at around 12pm on Monday,called Chang Win to confirm there are coming?
and i had a very disappointed answer,they arent coming down MAN!!!
then what else can i do??
call my Malacca frens lo..as they all are in hometown now..
called Chiew Mien,she said her house very far from town,ok suan..
then called Tersie,she said okay to come out makan..
then called Yan Pei,she said today cannot change to tomorrow..
n i wait for Tersie in house till 3pm..
im guessing what she is doing??
bath & make up also no need 2 hours gua??
called her to confirm again,well she thought change to tomorrow with Yan pei..SHit!
ended up shopping with my mum and aunty in JUSCO MALACCA!!wtf!

Tuesday afternoon,woke up,
called Yan Pei, asked her bring me go CENDOL + LAKSA..
and this time i manage to get to my desirable place..haha!!
had CENDOL + LAKSA in a very small BABA & NYONYAK restaurant..
and Mee SIAM as well(which i never heard of before)

left hand side of the restaurant

right hand side of the restaurantcenter of the restaurantROJAK(left), MEE SIAM(right),CENDOL(up n down)LAKSA!!!

after that,went Jusco again as im in Yan Pei's car and i parked my car there..
went in the gaming area in Jusco..and Yan Pei wanna challenge me on throwing basketball..
haha..she really dunno die ar...bet she never heard of my nickname,
"KING OF BALL"..ngek ngek ngek!!(but table tennis ball la)..lolz!
end up i only got 120++ points while she got 160++ points..
see her performance!

grrrr.......nvm,i will train and will have my vistory next time..haha!!
went home to have a short nap till 7pm..(from 4 to 7pm,short until...)
then come out again,thought of go makan siham lala..
mana tau tak da buka..
think n think n think..
no choice,go back to Satay Celup again,as Tersie so wana have it!
chit chat a lot with them,
but most of the time only 2 girls are talking(they are high schoolmates),
so i diam diam sit there hear only lo..haha!!i okay 1 ma..

With Tersie

after that went for a movie with Yan Pei n 2 of her frens..
after that K-Mission @ DREAM BOX(1 of the 2 k box in malacca)..
sing till 2am,but Yan Pei still dun wanna go home,
she took me to eat Toast and soft-boiled eggs nearby Dataran Pahlawan..
had the early 'BREAKFAST' till 3 something,then only went home..
well,i have to say thanks to Tersie for coming out..
and Million of thanks to YAN PEI!!
THANKS for acc me when im in Malacca..
THANKS for bringing me go makan 'HO LIAO'(in hokkien)..
Thanks and Thanks & Thanks!!!