失望

每每在报章上，看到那些外国留学生的留言。。
我的眼泪就会在眼眶上打滚。。
看见人家写出的感受。。
在外国的天气，地方，建筑物，行人。。
真的好想像他们一样，可以出国感受一下。。
从他们的文章上，我感觉到，他们是非常开心的。。
虽然要离开温馨的家，但你到其他国家的满足感，
体验到的人事物，足以覆盖那想家的念头。。
我很羡慕他们。。
因为他们可以梦想成真。。
我想这是每个人的愿望吧？
有人对我说，
只要现在赚多一点钱，哪怕以后去不了。。
他们是对的，
但是，
他们没想过，
出国念书，和出国旅行，是不一样的。。
体验到的人事物是不一样的。。
完完整整的不一样。。
我真的很羡慕他们，可能靠家庭，可能靠自己努力赚钱。。
但他们实实在在去了他们梦想的地方念书。。
我很辛苦，为什么我跟他们不一样？
到底要多久，我才能像他们这样？
我真的很痛心。。
我剩下一年就读完书了，有些朋友都到了外地读书。。
二十岁，该读书时，我却不能一心一意地读。。
可能到以后，这会是我心中的遗憾。。
不想了，我去不到，我就要让我的孩子去到。。
到现在我终于明白那些老人家，
每次都会' bili...bala...' 的一大堆，叫孩子们努力读书。。
因为他们年轻时无法得到好教育，他们就设法让下一代得到。。
但有些人还不会感恩，不知道老人们，爸爸妈妈的苦心。。
HAIZ..你们啊！当你有的时候请珍惜。。
要知道不是每个人都可以像你们那样，可出国深照！

2/7/2010

Don't know for how long i never been sign in here..
well,i think this blog have no more reader already haha..but never mind,it is just a place for me to release myself,keep my good and bad memories..
sometimes i will look back at my previous posts,then i will realise,
WOW,I have went through so many things before?!
It was a good thing though,but i just cant keep myself writting blog everyday..
maybe i should do it??as look back to the past we can know how much we have improved!

back to the story,
I have just finished my 2nd sem in Taylors.
The exam week was the most hardcore week for me,4 days paper continuously..
about the result,i don't care..as i have lost my interest in studying already..
maybe it was because I have knew more frens from the working society?
and I like their life rather than staying college,paying a huge number of money just to hear people talk cock??
well,no matter how i will finish my degree!just 1 more year left okay?

back to work,
nowadays working 5 days per week,quite tired but i can get the money i want...
but major money came in,then I have major spending as well...
I was always out with different gangs of frens,then mostly went for DRINK!
not Milo Ice,not Teh O Ice Limau,but TIGER,CARLSBERG etc..
hm..dunno since when,i like beer..
maybe it consider cheap if compared to other alcohol drinks?
I know it is not worth spending money in BEER,but...u know what?
it's the way i release stress...
life is always so stressful..full of obstacles...
and by BEER,after a few glass you consume,you can get urself out...a TRUE YOU!!
those things that u dun dare to say out normally,when the time u r half-drunk,
u can just say it out like a story..
and when talk about something funny,
u can laugh it out like a baby...without giving a fuck to other people..
how good is tat?

alright!i get something i want,then i lose something too..
and that is the fucking opportunity cost!
i got job,but i lost my travel time..
normally every sem break i will go for a trip for sure..
but now,cant even plan as i am working 5 days per week..
the day i free then my frens not free...timing TAK DA NGAM!
what can i do?haha!i tell u i desperately wanna go REDANG LANG TENGAH PERHENTIAN at this moment!
it is just a fucking paradise with those beautiful corals and fishes!and sexy bikini baby as well..lolz!!okay,for those who are planning to go these places,take more pics pls..
at least i can FEEL the sea,corals,fishes and hot chicks...from the pic itself..

BUT at the time im writting this,im missing someone,or maybe something...
and that is why i can sit here,abandon my report 1st,and write this very cute 110 post..
life still go on as usual,dont think too much..life is unpredictable..
and this is my life for the moment!