这是一个我曾经爱得很深的女人。。我们彼此相爱。。
她，让我快乐地度过了美丽的一年半。。
她，让我知道原来叮当是黄色的。。
她，让我知道了好多好多。。
我不好，我不配拥有她。。
现在的我，已经没有能力去照顾你，
上天和你也不给我机会去照顾你。。
我永远失去了你。。
请找一个比我好得多的，让你自己的生活过的美满幸福。。
最后一次，我想对你说：我爱你！
保重！

放不下

经历了那么久，还是放不下你。。

心里有很多话想跟你说，

想跟你说，你的吻对我是特别的。。

你的拥抱，你的背影。。

到底需要多久才能彻底的放下你呢？？

中毒太深。

算了吧。。

算了吧。。
当两个人真的觉得不适合对方时，

真的应该放手。。

苦苦纠缠，也无济于事。。

我累了，真的累了。。

两个人相处，真的很难。。

你喜欢做什么就去做吧。。

没人会再理你了。。

老婆仔，我真的爱你，回来我身边好吗？？

A relationship that starts on the 10th of august 2010..

2 people start their life together happily.

slowly coming in the arguments that cannot be avoided for most of the couples..

small arguments that the boy thought that is not important,

but it is different on the viewpoint of the girl..

2 people from 2 different family background,

they tried many times,many method to reduce the arguments happened between them.

until the boy thought that the argument become some normal part in their relationship..

although their viewpoint is different,

the boy still love the girl..

very lovely, truly and deeply..

the boy never record down anything that happened between them..

because he believes that this girl would be his last girl,

for now and forever..

and hoping that he can spend his entire life with her..

and they are going to live like pair of old love birds in the sky..

on the 25th December 2011..

it should be a merry merry Christmas for all the people in the wo

rld..

but it's very different for the boy..

the girl wanted to break up with the boy,

it's all because the boy made the girl angry the day before..

the boy said nothing when the girl tells him..

he thought that it's just a funny dream,

everything will remain the same after he woke up from his dream..

after a short nap,

the boy called the girl out,

hoping that the girl also forget what she said before this..

but the girl tell the boy she will not change her decision,

although they know they still love each other..

she wants to keep the sweetest moment of them in her memories,

rather than letting the boy keep hurting her..

the boy keep trying and trying,

trying to change the girl's decision..

the boy keep begging begging and begging,

trying to beg the girls to go back to him..

but everything seems too late,

the boy cried in front of the girl..

the tears cant stop coming out from the eyes..

the tears cant stop coming out from the broken heart...

at this time the boy tells the god,

he would sacrifices everything,

as long as the girl come back to him...

IF the girl is reading this,

the boy wanted to say :

老婆仔，我真的爱你，回来我身边好吗？？

失望

每每在报章上，看到那些外国留学生的留言。。
我的眼泪就会在眼眶上打滚。。
看见人家写出的感受。。
在外国的天气，地方，建筑物，行人。。
真的好想像他们一样，可以出国感受一下。。
从他们的文章上，我感觉到，他们是非常开心的。。
虽然要离开温馨的家，但你到其他国家的满足感，
体验到的人事物，足以覆盖那想家的念头。。
我很羡慕他们。。
因为他们可以梦想成真。。
我想这是每个人的愿望吧？
有人对我说，
只要现在赚多一点钱，哪怕以后去不了。。
他们是对的，
但是，
他们没想过，
出国念书，和出国旅行，是不一样的。。
体验到的人事物是不一样的。。
完完整整的不一样。。
我真的很羡慕他们，可能靠家庭，可能靠自己努力赚钱。。
但他们实实在在去了他们梦想的地方念书。。
我很辛苦，为什么我跟他们不一样？
到底要多久，我才能像他们这样？
我真的很痛心。。
我剩下一年就读完书了，有些朋友都到了外地读书。。
二十岁，该读书时，我却不能一心一意地读。。
可能到以后，这会是我心中的遗憾。。
不想了，我去不到，我就要让我的孩子去到。。
到现在我终于明白那些老人家，
每次都会' bili...bala...' 的一大堆，叫孩子们努力读书。。
因为他们年轻时无法得到好教育，他们就设法让下一代得到。。
但有些人还不会感恩，不知道老人们，爸爸妈妈的苦心。。
HAIZ..你们啊！当你有的时候请珍惜。。
要知道不是每个人都可以像你们那样，可出国深照！

2/7/2010

Don't know for how long i never been sign in here..
well,i think this blog have no more reader already haha..but never mind,it is just a place for me to release myself,keep my good and bad memories..
sometimes i will look back at my previous posts,then i will realise,
WOW,I have went through so many things before?!
It was a good thing though,but i just cant keep myself writting blog everyday..
maybe i should do it??as look back to the past we can know how much we have improved!

back to the story,
I have just finished my 2nd sem in Taylors.
The exam week was the most hardcore week for me,4 days paper continuously..
about the result,i don't care..as i have lost my interest in studying already..
maybe it was because I have knew more frens from the working society?
and I like their life rather than staying college,paying a huge number of money just to hear people talk cock??
well,no matter how i will finish my degree!just 1 more year left okay?

back to work,
nowadays working 5 days per week,quite tired but i can get the money i want...
but major money came in,then I have major spending as well...
I was always out with different gangs of frens,then mostly went for DRINK!
not Milo Ice,not Teh O Ice Limau,but TIGER,CARLSBERG etc..
hm..dunno since when,i like beer..
maybe it consider cheap if compared to other alcohol drinks?
I know it is not worth spending money in BEER,but...u know what?
it's the way i release stress...
life is always so stressful..full of obstacles...
and by BEER,after a few glass you consume,you can get urself out...a TRUE YOU!!
those things that u dun dare to say out normally,when the time u r half-drunk,
u can just say it out like a story..
and when talk about something funny,
u can laugh it out like a baby...without giving a fuck to other people..
how good is tat?

alright!i get something i want,then i lose something too..
and that is the fucking opportunity cost!
i got job,but i lost my travel time..
normally every sem break i will go for a trip for sure..
but now,cant even plan as i am working 5 days per week..
the day i free then my frens not free...timing TAK DA NGAM!
what can i do?haha!i tell u i desperately wanna go REDANG LANG TENGAH PERHENTIAN at this moment!
it is just a fucking paradise with those beautiful corals and fishes!and sexy bikini baby as well..lolz!!okay,for those who are planning to go these places,take more pics pls..
at least i can FEEL the sea,corals,fishes and hot chicks...from the pic itself..

BUT at the time im writting this,im missing someone,or maybe something...
and that is why i can sit here,abandon my report 1st,and write this very cute 110 post..
life still go on as usual,dont think too much..life is unpredictable..
and this is my life for the moment!

初恋红豆冰

初恋的感觉，

就像是在最炎热的夏天，

吃了一口红豆冰， 又甜又冰，

冰得舌头都痛了，

还未来得及感受它在口中的滋味，

它却已融化了。

初恋红豆冰，一部全大马的作品，
勾起了我好多小时候的回忆。。
戏里的家具摆设，用具，都是我小时候所看到的。。
但现在已经没有了咯。。。
我小时后的玩意儿，就有如戏里的‘bakuli’ ，
以前的我虽然没有说时常赢，但都可以赢到一大罐回来。。
那 'bakuli' 不只是有单调的一种，而是有五颜六色，大小不一的。。
还有就是戏里那村子里，用脚车载人那一幕，
小时候，妈妈或外婆，都是这样载我去巴刹的。。好怀念。。
当要午睡时，那古老的风扇，发出的怪声，为我的午睡，带来一种可爱的旋律。。哈哈！

再来就是这戏带出来的感觉，
初恋。。甜甜的。。
你还记得您的初恋吗？？
每个人都会把它放在心中。。
不知何时，那记忆又会突然播放出来。。
刹那的回忆，是甜蜜的。。
虽然那时是非常伤心，但过后回想起来，却是如此的甜蜜。。
因为，它让我们成长了。。
爱一个人，要勇敢地说出来，才不会失去。。
爱一个人，也并不需要在一起，只要对方平安快乐就好。。
你们抓到这部戏要表达什么吗？？
不晓得？？那就去尝尝红豆冰吧！